School is out. Summer is here. My body is definitely all here.... It needs to go away. After all the times this month I have failed Ana, I will not from now on. I'm like a fucking pig. I eat everything. If people were starving and I was around.... dont let me near any food cause no one else would get any food.
So my last stuffs that i was going to do was a failure, but now that I have plenty of time to do stuff my way and not worry about school, I will.
Yesterday I weighted myself... my scale is all jacked up, but I guessed from the readings and such that I weighed 133.
At the end of this month I am going to Atlanta to shop and such. I will hit my short term goal of 125 before then! I refuse not to. I made a plan. That plan is to go on a water fast. I will do it this time! No stopping. People around me are getting smaller and I am just getting bigger. I went shopping last night and got 2 pairs of shorts, 2 shirts, and a bikini. Both shorts were a size 3. One of them were from hollister... so cute. haha anyways they fit, but my thighs looked so fat!! I'm glad that now I have motivation... and especially the bikini. gonna have to do something with this belly.
I made a schedule, such like a school schedule. I wake up at 8. I get ready to run until I burn atleast 100 calories at 8:30 then do the same at 9:30,10:30, 11:30, and at 4:30, so by the end of the day I would have atleast burned 500 calories. I need to be thin. I need Ana. I also need thinspo :)