Friday, April 29, 2011

Going alright

This week has been pretty crazy! Got out of school early on wednesday due to weather and tornadoes then got off the rest of the week and dont go back until Monday! Can you say exercise time?? Yesterday my mom made pizza! I always eat half the pizza... I still at half the pizza this time, but I read the calories.... I was suprised, only 360 for half the whole pizza! Well not like I'm celebrating or anything, but that is all the food I ate and I did burn 360 calories on my treadmill that day.

I have eaten carrots today. Idk how many calories, but it said on serving equal 35 calories and I didnt really eat but like 10 small baby carrots so idk. But yea... At 11:20 I told myself I have to burn 200 calories by 12 o'clock. And I did! So so far I have burned more than I have eaten and I'm going to try to do that everyday. 10 minutes for me on the treadmill = about 120 calories down... if I run most the time. Not too bad at all. Hopefully I have energy for it though, that will be the hardest part.

I have EOC's for school next week. not looking forward to them. I have big spanish projects I need to do, but I cant really work on them. I'm liking the way the upper half of my body is looking... like from waist up. My arms are small and so is like almost to where my ribs end, but below that is fatcity!! How are you coming along? Are you loosing any weight? If you had to choose one thing, what would be your best bodily feature?

Reverse thinspo!!

That was on a blog.... and she thought she looked amazing! Yuck. Wanna eat?? thought not. Especially the bikini and underwear pics.... well all of them actually!

Thinspo!! :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Have you ever noticed that you have no friends? Have you ever just lived your life all alone? Well that is my life/ I have like 3 friends maybe. I'm alone and nobody likes me. I dont know why. People have never liked me. I'm not mean or unapproachable, so I just don't get it. I told myself I'm a lone and I just have to live with it. It will take me some time to get used to the fact, but when I'm in college or atleast can drive it will be better. I hate life.
I have no social life at all. No one probably reads my blog, but that is okay because I know I'm all alone anyways.

I cleaned my room today and found stuff in notebooks I wrote in like 7th and 8th grade... I'm in 10th now and I realized how much I still obsess about the same things. My weight, how I'm going to live in the future, and how alone I am.

I've been eating since yesterday afternoon, but since I read and realized these things today, I know what I need to do.

I'm not alone. I have Ana. Maybe she is the only one I have, but she is all I need and I am all she needs. Together me and her will never be alone. I'm glad I found Ana again. She will keep me going.

Tonight America's Next Top Model comes on. It is my favoritest show ever <3 great motivation to get skinny too!

Anyways here is some more thinspo!

Monday, April 25, 2011

I dont know why, but I gave in and ate a chewy dips bar (140). I'm really having to work at not eating the other one I have. I will have self control and not eat it! I haven't eaten anything else though... I also burned 200 calories on my treadmill. I weighed myself and was glad the number went down... I just had to weigh. I had to know. I'm not gonna share the number though because I want to keep losing.

I have had a boring, tired day. Taking a nap really does help not be hungry. For me anyways.

Got my speech out of the way and forgot the end... embarrassing! I hate school. My stomach growled! It was silent in the classroom too! I wasnt hungry so idk why it did. But I sit by two of my crushes and one of them looked around haha. Hopefully he didnt think it was me.

Anyways here is some thinspo!